News Blackout

I haven't listened to NPR in a while. Maybe a week.
I don't know what's going on with my president.
I don't know what's going on with the oil spill, or Iran's nuclear capability, or Korea's fight with Korea, or the war in Iraq and Afghanistan. I do know that the general has been replaced because he said negative things about the war effort and those running it in a Rolling Stone interview, but I didn't actively seek out that knowledge.
I don't know how the primary elections are going.
I don't know how the economy is doing.
I don't know any of that.
I haven't gone online to read anything at NPR.org.
I haven't listening to the radio.
I haven't downloaded a Podcast in quite some time. Maybe weeks. Possibly a month.
I haven't seen anything.
I haven't read anything.
I haven't listened to anything.
I haven't even watched "The Daily Show". I love that show. And I haven't seen it in some time.

This is really my wife's prescription. She has noticed that I get tight when I know what's going on. Probably because I can't do anything to change the situation and I start to feel helpless and powerless to affect positive change. Or maybe it's because I realize just how many retarded people there are in the world, and most of them are in high public offices. Many of them have been elected to their positions. And all of them are in charge of our general health and well-being. And so few of them give two shits about any of us.

But, as is typical, my wife knows what's good for me. I feel less pressure. I don't feel as powerless. I don't feel as doomed. As angry. As frustrated.

Yeah, I'm still depressed and I'm fighting really hard to get out of that. And my wife is helping with that, too. She found and-- essentially-- checked out an audio book from the library for me about cognitive therapy because she knows that has worked for me in the past, and she knows that I'm not a reader, and she knows that I have at least an hour in the car per day as I commute to and from work where I can listen to said audio book. But this depression that I'm in right now isn't caused by the stupid news. And it's not exacerbated by the stupid news. And, perhaps, the news was covering up my depression, making me think that I was really upset about the news rather than my brainal crap.

My wife is really good to me. And really good for me. I'm glad I've got her in my life. And I really wish that I could give her some idea about the depth and strength of my emotions. But if I did that, I might explode her from the inside, her frail body and weak frame wouldn't be able to withstand the emensitude of emotions. She's my best. I absolutely adore her.

What was I saying? Oh right. The news sucks ass.