I suddenly had a really strong desire to smoke a cigarette.
I haven't had a cigarette in over 6 years. I quit cold turkey and haven't had any serious problems staying smoke-free. Often I will remember smoking. I'll even go through the motions of miming smoking a cigarette. But when I start to think about it, I start to remember the negatives, primarily that the last several cigarettes I smoked didn't taste good at all. That was the big turn off for me-- they used to taste great, and when I actually decided to quit, they started tasting like shit.
My strong desire isn't a craving. It's not anything I'm really worried about. But when those moments arise in my life-- the moments where I think that I want a cigarette-- it makes me pause to wonder what it is that has made me want a cigarette.
I wonder what it is that is making me want to smoke today?
Maybe it's all the stupid people in my state that I'm dealing with on a daily basis. Or maybe it's my inability to focus on the non-stupid people that get drowned out by the constant Drone Of Stupid emanating from the mouths and minds of the Retarded Masses I teach and work with every day.
Maybe it has nothing to do with any of that.
Maybe, as my wife loves to say, it's because I'm tired.
...I'm going with the Stupid People Theory...
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