I'm So Done

If you don't have enough money, you can expect to hear somebody somewhere tell you it's your fault. You didn't save enough. You didn't work hard enough. You spent too much. You don't have enough money? You're to blame, I don't feel sorry for you and, in fact, I condemn you for things you've done in my mind.

Today, my wife's car won't start. That's because the ignition key has worn down to the point that it won't turn the ignition anymore. Nothing anyone in my family could possibly be blamed for. And now she's getting a locksmith to come out and fix her car. For him just to arrive is $130. And while he's doing that, she's missing work. And she gets paid hourly. So while she's spending money, she can't make money. That's this month, and it's not even half-way over.

Last month the air conditioner in the house we're trying to sell broke. Our realtor told us that we could either fix it or it would come out of the price of the house. She recommended if the fix was less than $300, we should go ahead and fix it. The repair was $250. No one has bought our house yet.

August saw us spending money on movers, and eating out because our refrigerator was unplugged or being moved, and all the associated costs of moving. We were moving, mind you, in order to save money and get ourselves in a more financially secure place.

July saw me spending $200 on registering my car. My mother purchased a car for me, saving me and my family so that I could continue to go to my job (aka the financial backbone of my family), because my previous car had been totalled by a hit and run accident occurring in my neighborhood, at night while I was asleep, and the car was parked on the street where I had been parking it for the past five years.

And all of these expenses come unexpectedly and cause me and my wife to scramble. Work overtime? Can't, it's not being offered right now. More hours at her job? Can't, not being offered. So... we cut expenses in order to spend what we need to on our priorities.

I am so utterly done with all of this bullshit.

So completely done.