treading

i sit here and feel lost
feel like i could use some help
but don't know who to ask to help me
because i don't really know what's wrong with me
except a whole bunch of stuff
piled on top
so i don't reach out
as i don't know who to reach to
and i don't know what to ask for
except some kind of help
all kinds of help
just struggling in it all today
all feeling really, really heavy
and i'm feeling really, really tired
like i've been treading water for years and just want a break
or the shore
or a floaty
something
but i keep treading water without help
and i keep treading so that i don't drown
but it's so exhausting