Flip Master

Why is it that some people have more power over us than others? Or, why do we give some people more power over us than others? What is it that makes us susceptible to some people and immune to others? Why is it that my previous supervisor made it hell for me to come to work every day so much so that I simply couldn't focus at all, while I couldn't seem to allow my friends and family space in my head and heart to help me through those times? I didn't feel like I was pushing them out. But my supervisor definitely had more power in my world. Why was I unable to flip that around and give my friends and family more power in my life over my supervisor? Why are there some people who know exactly where to hook you so that you seem to fall victim to their viciousness every time they are around or say something to you or send you an email?

I want the good to be stronger. And maybe it is. But I want it to make the bad go away. I guess that's probably unrealistic. There will always be bad. How about: I would like to become a Master of the Flip. I know bad things will happen. I know bad people will exist. I know those bad people will make their way into my world at some point and I cannot prevent that. While they are in my life, I want to become a Master of the Flip. I want to have those bad people do whatever it is they're going to do, and then instead of getting furious or emotional, I want to flip it and take myself to a healthy place of peace and calm and non-care regarding the mean people or situation. I wanna flip myself around from anger to peace. A Master of the Flip. 

Wish I knew how to do that. Wish there weren't people in my life who had so much control over me. Wish I could allow myself the confidence to take power over my own emotions. The confidence to not allow those people the power I give them.  I want to be the Flip Master today. Right now. Immediately. 

Especially since I didn't win the $420 million jackpot last night. Motherfucker.