Concerned

My wife was supposed to go to a therapy session with her ex today. It was supposed to start at 9:30am and go for 45 minutes (taking us to 10:15am, just so you don't have to do the math yourself). She had planned to bring up some issues in therapy today. "Bringing up issues" always makes her ex mad. When he gets mad, he yells, talks over people, lies pathologically, and brings up fraudulent and erroneous law suits. There was a time when he got mad and I had to step between he and my wife, as I was concerned for her physical safety. He was ultimately asked to leave our property by my wife. He complied, yet stood in the gutter, taunting me, threatening me, and yelling at my wife.

She was going to bring up issues with him in therapy today to help with her communication with this man which should help their children.

It is now 11:12am. I haven't heard from her.

Sometimes they have gone into double sessions, which would mean that the session would last for an hour and a half and they would get out around 11am.

It's now 11:17. I haven't heard from her.

Yeah, I'm nervous about her safety. I'm concerned that she isn't physically ok. I'm concerned that she isn't mentally ok. I'm concerned that she isn't texting or calling because she can't. Or because she doesn't want me to take on her emotional state, which I do far too often than is good. I'm concerned for her safety.

I don't like being concerned for her safety. When I'm concerned for her safety, it tells me that she's in an unsafe environment. I'm concerned for her safety almost every time she's around him.

There really isn't anything I can do about her safety now. There isn't anything I can do about her safety when I'm not around.

I'm trying to breathe through this and continue to focus on my work. I'm supposed to be working. I'm taking a break to relax.

I've been more concerned before. Today isn't as bad as I've been before. But I don't like it. And I don't like thinking about her being in unsafe situations.

It's 11:21am. I haven't heard from her.
It'll be okay.
Even if it isn't.
It will be okay.